keep your eyes on the ball.

The question “do you know what you are doing?” often springs into my mind.

I would like to think my answer would be “yes”.

But when I look at my current situation, I realise I have often turned my eyes away from what I have and always looked towards what I want.

Is it normal to do so?

One half of me would call it ambition but another half of me claims it as fantasy.

To have security and success in my profession, to have a roof over my head and allowance to buy what I desire is wonderful, yet it is still not enough.

In the back of my mind, I still wrestle with the inner dream of being a writer.

If only I never had this dream!

I certainly wouldn't be plagued with the thought that I have not done all that I had set out to achieve in my life.

Aptly, Babes recently sent me a quote from the American Journalist, Hunter Thompson:

"Security...what does this word mean in relation to life as we know it today?... by this term, I mean a man who has settled for financial and personal security for his goal in life...Turn back the pages of history and see the men who have shaped the destiny of the world. Security was never theirs, but they lived rather than existed. Who is the happier man? He who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who has stayed on shore and merely existed?"